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Name: Bryan
Country: Malaysia
Birthday: 8/21/1978
Gender: Male
Interests: Go visit places that I have never and want to go in my Life; Cars,and music
Expertise: Non Actually.....Really try to do anything that is challenging.
Occupation: Customer service/support
Industry: Construction
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Yahoo:  Sileast20
Member Since:
3/14/2006
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I was kinda wonderin what is wrong with me today, it ain't normal for me to be sittin around and not feelin right about everythin. Somethin's botherin me like nothin I had ever experienced before. The sense of fear and doubt that made me look like a man who drunk a couple of brew and still felt awake and well. Issit my body acting up or issit me having this churning feeling inside that I am afraid of something far beyond my imagination. I dunno how to explain it but it is these sure enough.
It is as if i am battling myself to the death. Some other self...... or I might have gone nut's. And the craving....uuuhhh...the craving for something I had been tryin to quit for so long. I was afraid I might fail miserably to the force which I could not fight alone. I could not bare it.... I am so alone in this .... and I know alot of you readin this might not have felt things like this but i am sure it is in everyone of us .... we are battlin it everyday as we speak. Now it had begun. The seek ....
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| " I tried to fight the past that haunt's me,
each day searching for a new boundary.
The thoughts in my mind is eating up my humanity.
The ugly-ness is returning to run
me Down Like 20 tonne truck.
I want to go ahead living a normal life,
but something inside me keeps telling me what I am before.
A horrible past not meant to be lived by any ordinary person.
Sometimes I wonder why I had to go through my life that way.
I go to people around me to search for a pityness which I actually don't deserve.
But actually I should be searching for the one above all.
THE ONE which could give spiritual calmness and forgives the worst of sinner's.
Sometimes I remembered being tortured over and over inside,
Yet I still manage to be sane outwardly.
I search and search and in vain I tried, realizing I been looking all in the wrong places.
I wonder whether anyone out there shares the same thoughts I do,
Well, then I guess there is more out there in the world had even experience worst off.
And still seeking and hoping that someday things would be better.
But as we live in the world everything is in the wrong place.
we would never know when and where it would end.
We could Only Wait and Wonder. "
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I sort of went through a sermon and remembered that I need to find out what a carnal Christian Mean. And this is it :-
Lets first define the term "carnal." The word "carnal" is translated
from the Greek word "sarkikos," which literally means "fleshly." This
descriptive word is seen in the context of Christians in 1 Corinthians
3:1-3. As you read this passage, you see that the apostle Paul
addresses the readers as "brethren" and then goes on to describe them
as "carnal." Therefore, we can conclude that Christians can be carnal
in their lifestyle. This may mean that a person does not have an active
prayer life, they're not seeking the Bible as an authority for their
life, they're not regularly worshipping God with other Christians,
and/or they are involved in the sinful ways of the world (see 1 John
2:15-16).
Back in 1 Corinthians 3, we see the answer to another part of your
question as to whether such a person is really saved. Since eternal
security is a fact of Scripture, even the carnal Christian is still a
Christian. The person cannot lose their salvation, because salvation is
a gift of God that He won't take away (see John 10:28; Romans 8:37-39;
1 John 5:13). Even in 1 Corinthians 3:15, the carnal Christian is
assured of salvation....."If anyone's work is burned, he will suffer
loss; but he himself will be saved, yet so as through fire." The
question often is not whether a person lost their salvation, but
whether a person was truly saved in the first place.
For Christians who become carnal in their behavior, God lovingly
chastens (disciplines) them as seen in Hebrews 12:5-11, so they can be
restored to close fellowship with Him and be "trained" to obey Him. May
the Lord bless you with assurance of your personal salvation and
confidence in the eternal security found in Christ to the point of
daily devoting your life and lifestyle to Him!
After discovering the meaning of what a carnal christian mean. I realized I need to examine myself personally to conclude whether or not I have the right path in life as I go along. Not many in my hometown or even state and country knows whether they are "carnal christian's" because of the vast majority being influence in the world of technology today for example in music, media and games. It influence the way we talk, the way we look at the opposite sex, the way we dress and other things the world is doing today. It is sad to see friends and relatives living that way and it is even more sad we are doing it ourselves.
As I watch people around me, I realized how far off I went and how far off life had taken me, away from the narrow path and the narrow gate which supposively lead's to Heaven and GOD. It is because people loves attractive things and wants to go ahead in wealth and prosperity in the world instead of expecting wealth and prosperity in Heaven. I guess I have much to learn about life of a christian, which I should pray for perseverance from The LORD JESUS CHRIST our Saviour and get back to the narrow path which I am by far off it's track.
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| I want to pray for myself, people surrounding me and others who reads this for keeping their faith in GOD each day without fail.
Coz I just think we miss out in the importants of life with GOD and I
pray that we all should shed a smile to make life easier for us and
others to remind them that nothing cost more than to appreciate each
other in terms of help, giving way and forgiving each other in clashes
and problems and in lending any hand we can.
I wrote this out of thought for all ...coz today I just saw the
beauty in being nice to others and others would be nice to you in harsh
situation which normally could cause tension. So I guess there still
are people who gives thought each day thinking that they are not alone
in the world coz there is a higher power just watching over us and
trying their best in life no matter what belief they abide in.
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I was thinking about this problem when I was sitting around listening to a Gospel via MP3 about "Shocking Youth Message Stuns Hearers - So Shocking & Biblical the Preacher Was Never Invited Back (Matthew 7:13-27)" By Paul Washer and also they had a webpage specially for missionary work's that is found Here!!.
Actually I found his message from the GOD that "we say we Love" really striking to the heart for youth that was present on that moment. My heart was again hit by this word "although through the MP3 player" while doing chores, that the GOD we praise and worship and believed to be a loving GOD is also a Raging GOD because we continue to sin and repent numerous of times because some of us do not want to let go what we do in life. I find this really applying to me coz most of us won't actually let go and think it is not our fault that this trouble soul is in us and would not let go. I realized that it is because we continue to think about it and made it as if we can actually solve it on our own and made GOD a tool in our life, praying and hoping that HE would help us in every way. But be aware that GOD also wants us to repent totally and "END" the lifestyle we had continued before for JESUS died on the cross for us and it is us that should finish the work that is for HIM.....not sitting around emptily waiting to be saved. Meaning some of us just waited for "something" or some happening in our lives and still continue on to sin widely and openly.
I had been tempted and tortured by sin over the past few years and being a so called "Christian "by name, I always found myself guilty of not turning back and seem to go back to sinning each time after each repentance. For example swearing, Stealing, Sexual Fantasies, enjoyments of the world and other stuff that could hinder me from the word of GOD and HIS love.
Thats why this had been troubling me and made me thought I should be better OFF dead than to be alive in the world and might as well on the way make things worst for myself and of course sometimes other's.But the one thing that hold me to this day and made me wonder why I am still alive is " What is the soul purpose of me being still able to stand on my two feet and still going ahead?? That is the question most of us are still wondering. We have to find out whose teaching to you and be able to ruled out false preachers to avoid any problems you might face in Life too. Knowing HIM better each day does help. I also heard the part where as whether most of us know and fear that are we all going to heaven if we say that JESUS is GOD and prophecy in HIS name yet Satan can do the same thing and yet he is in Hell. That fear I mention earlier should be in us to remind us that is our conviction really for HIM or for ourselves. This is a thought to really need to be ponder deeply. Are All the christian work's we do are done for GOD or for ourselves. Even a blind man need not to see with his eyes to know what kind of kindness given and to whom it gives credit to.
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